I can barely remember the last words I said.
Your heart was so broken; your eyes full of dread.
"It's not like I meant it, I really didn't mean-"
but it was already too late; your eyes set the scene.
AsylumThe walls are white,
so are the floors.
This place were I live has no doors.
It smells of nothing.
Not flowers, nor rain.
Sometimes it gets hard just to keep sane.
I look at the wall,
but somethings not right.
You can’t tell it’s morning, noon, or night.
It’s driving me crazy,
I’m pulling my hair,
but, my arms can’t get there.
I move my arms with all my strength.
They remain in the same place.
Tears sting my frustrated face.
I feel a sting,
burning my skin,
Then reality seems to fade out and in.
The walls are white,
so are the floors.
This place where I live has no doors.
It smell of nothing.
Not flowers, nor rain.
In reality I guess I’m not really sane.
Check ListCHECK LIST:
Heart feeling with welling regret...
Still reminded of the words I fear...
Now it’s her who you are kissing...
VolumeTheir screams are loud
my music's louder
bang on the door all they want
I’m not coming out
raise their voices
I’ll raise the volume
anything is better than being out there
Walk away and leave me alone
Don’t they ever get tired of it?
I know I do
Turn up the volume
and drown out the sorrow
Bang on the door all they want
I’m never coming out
ROTG A New bloom Arises: PROLOGE PROLOGE:
The first time I planted a seed was in the middle of my parents argument. The yelling and screaming grew worse each day and every time I'd just grit and bear it. Every time, I would plant another seed. When ran out of seeds I would run off during another argument and buy some more with, what my aunt and uncle called behind my back, “pity” money. And each time I was greeted with the same old lady who told me folktales about The Guardians, the were nonsense, of course, but at least they were better than hearing the harsh words my parents had to say.
On November 29, my first flower bloomed. I ran into my parents room, only to find that Mom had already left for work and Dad was sleeping on the couch. So, I celebrated in their place. Gathering all my plants with their decorated pots and freshly put soil, I set them around my desk, pouring each one it's own drink; only to pour it in their pot for them to drink.
Sometimes I'd talk
Rise of the Guardians: Goodbye”Promise me you won’t ever forget us…” Jack whispered in my ear, “Promise that you’ll tell stories of us to your children. Never stop them from believing.”
”But will I ever see you again? Will I ever see any of you again?!” I said, panic growing in my stomach. I looked up at him, there were tears in his eyes, “Jack? What’s wrong? Why won’t you look at me?! Answer me!”
He then looked up at me, tears budding in his crystal blue eyes. “I’m sorry Becca, but all snow eventually melts. Farewell..” Jack slowly started fading away, leaving only a small snowflake behind. The other guardians also began to fade.
I looked around frantically, “Jack?! Santa?! Bunny?! Toothfairy?! Sandman?! This has got to be some kinda joke! Please don’t go, don’t leave me!” I ran to my window, stumbling on the way. There was no one. My bones grew cold, my heart stopped.
They were gone…
I'll WaitI'll wait for you from dawn 'till dusk,
invisible to your eyes.
I'll stand out in the bitter cold,
even listen to your lies.
Deep inside we're tied together,
the string of fate connects.
I'll stand out in the pouring weather,
waiting for fate to deal its decks.
And when you finally turn around,
see me from the heart.
Our love will be bound,
we'll never let it fall apart.
So I'll wit for you day by day,
even if the answer is only a "may".
A Sinner's LullabyHush little baby,
Don’t say a word.
The lines between good and sin
Close your eyes,
And say goodnight.
You’ll find your light.
Have sweet dreams,
My dear young love.
You’re barren of.
Hush little baby,
Rest your head.
Your shining hope
Is not yet dead.
Mirrored EyesMy mirrored eyes
Reflect what people see
Not my lies
But yet it’s me
Cast the shadow
That steals my form
Release the arrow
Unleash the storm
The damns break apart
Sealed inside no more
It took but a single dart
To penetrate the core
You've unleashed a sea
That was locked away
Deep inside of me
All my fears are washed away
But then I return
To the place I flood
What didn't burn
Is stained in blood
I clean the mess
I left behind
The game of chess
At last aligned
Shove me under cold watersWhy is this world so cold?
Why do their stares match their hearts?
What did I do to them..?
I was born this way priest..
Why do your followers hate me so much?
Why do they wish to burn me on a stake?
Why do they chant for me to burn in Hell?
Have I truly done anything wrong?
Is being born like this a sin?
Why is hiding who I truly am gonna save me?
Priest..Will you baptise me today?
Will you pray for me, every night before you close your eyes?
Or will you shun me like your followers have?
Is your religion just smoke and mirrors?
What do I have left to hold on to?
Shove me under cold waters, priest.
Or I will plunge into them myself...
Broken LetterSometimes I wake to silence,
And my heart breaks again.
Sometimes I hear your laughter
in the echoes of the rain,
some times I feel your hand
touching mine, and feel the pain
as I remember you are no longer there.
If it would mean that for a day
I could walk with you,
I would sell my soul
for a chance to make that true.
If I could hold you for a moment
I know I could make it though,
but I can't, and darkness fills me.
I think some times how easy
it would be for me to die.
I lie awake and think of you,
alone I sit and cry,
and in the shadow of my pain
I cling to life and try
to be someone that you can view with pride.
Each day I work my hands
till they bleed and break.
each night I sit and suffer
as I relive each mistake,
Always have I loved you,
without you here I fear I'll break.
But for you I will try to hold on.
In my dreams you call my name
asking why I let you go.
You look on with teary eyes
such inner pain your face will show,
and wake in tears of anguish
JackCarve out my inside
Leaving me hollow and cold
With a fake smile
And a falsely burning heart
Too soon I’ll just rot away
It all means nothingThose months I spent with you.
Did they really mean nothing?
Do you really want to hide me from everyone?
What am I gonna be for you?!
Just a fucking ghost?
Why does this hurt so bad?
This feeling of impenetrable loneliness,
this darkness that surrounds me everyday!
Didn't you understand the love I felt for you?
Didn't you understand how long I wanted us to mean something...
It means nothing!
Everything we ever were is nothing!
Little BirdHello little birdy,
Won't you bring me along.
I see you chirping so beautifully,
a very sad song.
You fly with grace,
And fly with speed.
Chasing your other birdy friends,
Way up in the trees.
Won't you stay a while,
Little birdy, with me.
I need someone to sit here,
And sing with me.
But your smart,
Little birdy, just you fly away.
Don’t stay with the girl,
That has lost her way.
A Pair of Blue Eyes
Oh hark, to my surprise,
All I see are those same blue eyes
The same eyes filled with wonder,
Filled with mystery
Which led me to ponder what
Became of thier history
The pair of blue eyes that haunt me
The same eyes that taunt me
I see them in the darkest shadows
Rising up, hitting me like arrows
I feel drawn to thier light,
They can be as black as night
With that a lot can be told
Eyes are windows to the soul
The pair of eyes that tease me,
The same eyes don't appease me,
They try to push me away
And thought there is danger; I must stay
Those same blue eyes hold a secret I want to see
The person who owns them, means so much to me.